haha a very very long due update..

hrm.. nothing much been happening, day by day it passes,

Just finished a Statics quiz which went pretty well, just pissed I couldnt solve the first question all cuz I got one force wrong with got me stuck for 40mins.. but oh well, that's the nature of statics questions..

now to whack physics and maths..

New day, so calm, so peaceful, so untouched,
Love the feel of my bed, my quilt, so much.
Everything halt in their footsteps, as such,
The frayed thoughts of mine I finally clutch.

Old thoughts, so wild, so vengeful, so untamed.
Hate the cries of my heart, my mind, insane.
Nothing soothes them of their anger, a flame,
That formless chaos which I hide with shame.

I seek solace, within my vivid dreams,
Mere mirages, where none is as it seems.
Savouring moments of a life carefree,
Cowardice at its very best, you see.

Spiralling senselessly into a complete mess of things,
That is my life.

An old infected, festering wound,
Hidden under bandages tightly wound.
Deep red gashes turned brown with dried up blood
Torn apart and with fresh blood did they flood.

The heart-stopping pain has never stopped has it?
Just merely distracted, though it was no simple feat.
And now that they have been ripped back open,
Hurting like hell, as if I've been plunged into the salty ocean.

When the red flashes fades into darkness,
When the pain transcends into numbness,

I thought, in that moment of clarity:

Have I not ripped those wounds with my own hands?
And drowned myself in that sea of utter despair.

Hey.. had block steamboat dinner today, and it was really shiok, with pretty good food and stuffed myself silly..

Comm stuff is starting to start up again, but Sheares production will be over by the end of this weekend, so no more SP! *cheers* Then starts the block comm stuff, beginning with Family Day, B-week, VC events, etc etc.. IT Team's been ok so far..

Yingying's gonna be taking part in the GeYao singing competition tmr and today she and tingping tried out outfits, tested out makeup, and even ended up with hairdo experimentation in my room with my hairwax.. till 3am in the morning.. hahaha they were having so much fun.. esp. when it ended with them smearing their waxy hands all over my face.. grrr and I just showered..

My two oldest babies are total rascals now.. always running off to check out stuff on my table, and flapping and testing their fully feathered wings all the time. AND of cuz chirping a lot.. haha how adorable.. and their full feathers feel really nice and soft to the touch =)

Tmr I think I'll be going to the IT fair with my sis to get her a new laptop, sponsored by my dad.. think I'll get myself some stuff too on the way.

AVA scholarship application's open.. shall be applying real soon. Just try my luck =)

yy and tp's making rosti and soup now =) hope I dont get tempted to eat.. still feeling the steamboat stuff rolling in my stomach..

yep, that's abt enough ramblings for now.. until next time..

They've grown!