hrm was just telling chiew abt my conversation with the guys back at camp..

They knew I was taking salsa, and of all the wasted hours we have in camp we do have a lot of opportunities to chat, with topics ranging from money-making schemes to masturbation techniques(dont even ask). So came this one where I related to them my salsa experiences and how there's this interesting dance called the bachata. which, i vaguely showed them how its done(since i still dunno how to dance bachata). And they all asked: "Ooh.. so will you 'stand'?"

*sigh* I said no. I mean i'm pretty sure I will not pitch a tent in my pants just cuz of bachata even though i've not done it b4. It'll be really freaky if the guys out there dancing bachata are all having an erection whilst dancing. Anyway, the group of them thus concluded I'm sufferring from ED. Which I'm happy with if that means I can control my other head and not let it loose everytime there's physical contact.. (haha maybe i'm just more used to female contact than them..)

Another friend of mine asked: "Hey, when you see a girl right, dont you even have the slightest desire to want to f**k them?" .Help. Now are guys supposed to feel that way? Hrm. Honestly speaking, it did set me thinking.. what do I really want if I see a girl, be it stranger or friend? As in the deep carnal desire inside.. what would it be?

That happened when we were in his car on the way to morning prata.. I just sat pondering while we travelled. Then I think I found the answer.

If I saw some other girl whom I might find attractive, I will want to just cuddle and snuggle her under warm sheets. (remember the quiz we did about where do we see ours 10yrs down the road? *haha mich*) But that will be that smallest teeny flash of evil voice that goes through my mind.. dont be worried dear! the higher-order desires are reserved for you only.. *grin* I'm seriously a person with a fetish for hugs and cuddling and snuggling.. But somehow I dont get hugs often.. =( and there're only like erm.. 2 pple that i hug? stef and cheryl. Though I like hugs, I feel uneasy hugging new pple too. weird weird.

To end this entry,

I'd rather have charisma than caressma anytime man..